Doom of the Damned.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Hmm, back to blogging time. Last friday, i and my dear went to goat farm as i promise her earlier on. Singapore is so small till i dont know where to go. So, i just decided to bring my dear to visit goat as i think is interesting and fun. So, we went there feed goat and see how goat really look like. They really look very cute and funny. Feeding goat is the best part. haha. Then after all the fun, we bought 9 bottle of goat milk. 4 chocolate and 4 white and 1 on the spot i and my dear share. The taste of it, is quite nice but after drinking will have abit of goat taste. Hmm~ then after all this fun and we left the place. Then we head to my dear house, cos dear want to bath and after that head to my house cos i also want to bath due to very hot weather. Then after that, we take cab to my dear cousin house ( li huan ) to visit her baby. As for me, carry on with the cab to ubi driving center to learn driving. At driving center, i was like also bang to another car cos the driver i think is new to ciruit. Sudden engine jam due to his envous i guess. But overall still nothing happen. haha ~ phew~ Then after driving, take cab to my dear cousin house to pick her up for dinner. Then after eat, my dear decided want to take a walk cos she eat till very full. So, to me is alright but my leg very tired. Very far leh. why hougang 2 street need to walk so far man. zzz ! Then, after that we also went to pongol park to relax. Then after that, things become bad. i dont want to say anymore cos the matter keep repeating.

To me, I really think i have grown up. After last break i have really understand both parties need to trust each other alot. Even a IF or suspect wont break them up. i will think alot such as can i give her all the happiness ? what can i give her ? can i handle the responsiblity ? finianial problem ? when problem come, we must face it and settle together. Thats how thing settled. If keep in heart for such a long time, once quarrel or argue. Everything will be very diffcult to handle. Most important is after all this, think of the other parties feeling first. sometimes, i even save money from my lunch and dinner. Such as when i'm alone i eat $2 noodles or the most is $6 in order to save money. when i with her i spent alot cos i really want to treasure her and give her all the best i can. This doesnt mean that, i am keep wasting money or rather buy her. That doesnt even exist on my mind. a dollar for a smile of hers is very worth for me. i hope we really understand me. i'm a person that want my dear always be blessed and happy not sad. I know my limit and i know what i can do and what i cannot. The chalet i book for her bday i hope she really enjoy it cos that sum of money is i really foke up with alot of difficulties. maybe she will blame me for wasting money but i once to her i will book for her mean i will. and furthermore her 18th birthday. I can see she very excited and nevous about it. Thats why chalet for me i think is worth the money. i really hope she will enjoy and appreciate it. what i want to say, i have told her already. i hope she can trust me without suspecting me or rather say i make the wrong choice. To her, maybe yes. but to me, i feel so hurt and disappointed and in a lost cos i have try my best to do it. like i promise i bring her to goat farm. i try to cover back during my mc day. Just hope she can accept the new of me.

i going to work le. start at 11am. I'm late again. hais~ too tired. yesterday didnt really slp too cos i cant slp in peace. i need to go off le.

Sayonara~

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