Saturday, September 27, 2008
Today i cant slp again. hais. i still think of her and love her still. The feeling in me is just like cant be removed off. All the times we spent, no matter bad or good is keep on flowing through my head and heart again. keep wondering how she’s doing now. Hoping she is happy. Times have really past very fast. oh well, lets not talk about it anymore. peace ^^
Woohoo, today is a very busy day for me. later on around 10am i start working. work till around 7pm then faster go meet joey and my poly fren to celebrate joey birthday at fish & Co. haha ! free de leh ! song can save money liao. i have some kind went through a very broke times. Need to be very budget about what to eat and what to spent. Really realise money still controlling our human life. Now adays everything is money here and money there. I just need to balance it out. Must be cautions with my spending =x Recently i have been budget about my lunch or dinner. Guess what. At the past, My spending at food is all around 10+ or up to 30+ but now who can imgine i spent 4.50 or up to 6.50 for my lunch or dinner. Is that amazing ? In a short period i can do this. To me, after some experience that i have really make me grow up and be more mature about thinking. But in future, my money will all be spent again cos i always put my girlfriend more piority then me cos she is much more important then me. ok lah. i go jog le. take care everyone.
Sayonara~
Never Give Up Easily
10:57 PM
Friday, September 26, 2008
Today as per normal went to work. Today really no customer. Dam bored. Keep standing there waiting to serve plus listening to song from my hp. LOL. So today i also just realise that i have a poly fren work as the same place as me. So i keep go down find him chat. haha ! then go back work lo. Hmm. after work take bus home. Save money. LOL ! then on the way home. slp on the bus. reach home liao. change to my sport attire then job around my neighbourhood for around 1hr plus then shun bian buy some herbal tea for my family. Now feel so tired. Going to slp le. take care everyone. Yawn~~ NIGHT !
Never Give Up Easily
2:53 PM
Thursday, September 25, 2008
So far till now, i’m feeling much better now le. Maybe this really is fated to be my lifetime experience. I have learn alot of things from this relationship. Theres alot things for me to say out. At least now i know, We human is not so perfectly. I will never trust break and patch again. ” A good horse will never turn back and eat old grass. ” To me, this break have really hurt deeply in my heart and i dont know when will i ever trust girls anymore. Does girls really like bad guys ? The last time i met her, her eye still told me she still love me, yet fear that i will hurt and disappoint her again and again so she decided to let go. i didnt want to say cos i know she really have decided and i think i should respect her decision. Loving a person is to give her happiness. Since i cant give her happiness, i cant hold her back so wish her next bf will treat her better then me. Anyway, its have been ended between us. At least for the good, we have become friends instead of foes. Friends out there, Thanks for being so understanding to me. Listening to me moaning on phone, pei-ing me spent my times. So, NOW ! i going to carry on my life and keep working. Earn and save money is now my 1st piority. Secondly, i need to widen my circle of friends so i will be much more brighten. Last and nt least, i have write this 2 song for her but she didnt want to look at it. Nvm. I just feel i shld post it here too cos i love the meaning alot and can really say out my feeling too.
李圣杰- 重来
多少爱能重来?
多少人愿意等待?
失去之后才明白
走进回忆的安排
一幕一幕的对白
上演我们的未来
期待原来是一种伤害
深爱的人一离开
是我不敢忽略你给我的爱
现在我只想回到最初的时候
不愿让你再泪流
寂寞之后只有你会陪着我
现在我只想回到最初的时候
我知道你还爱着我
亲爱的你请
你握紧我的手
请你看看我
请看需要你的我
一切重头
只要你回头
李圣杰- 很想說
(You Are So Beautiful To Me)
在我眼里你永遠最美 連你一個微笑也都會讓我醉
你所謂的幸福我想給 以為手不放開就是痴心絕對
太愚昧 難道 笑容沒了 距离有了 快樂也走了
還是 真心死了 彼此不信任了 終于懂了 真的
很想說有你是幸福的 很想說我的心是你的
很想說你真的誤解了 很想說你真的忘記了 My Love
笑容沒了 距离有了 快樂也走了
還是 真心死了 彼此不信任了 終于懂了 真的
很想說有你是幸福的 很想說我的心是你的
很想說你真的誤解了 很想說你真的忘記了
很想說會好好疼你的 很想說愛你是自由的
很想說你是否听見了 很想說你真的忘記了
愛了 就有堅持理由 別說 我會留在路口
不會走 愛你會直到最后
很想說有你是幸福的 很想說我的心是你的
很想說你真的誤解了 很想說你真的忘記了
很想說會好好疼你的 很想說愛你是自由的
Never Give Up Easily
11:50 PM
Monday, September 22, 2008
Today i finally slp for 2 hours. Each day passes, i misses her more and more. My heart keep getting more pain. She is the person really can hold my heart once again when i never trust in love or long time relationship. This few day i keep thinking how am i going to change for the good and best. After leaving her, i just feel that i cant live without her, all those memories all keep flowing back to my mind. Even vivocity where i currently working now got so much nice and pretty girl. I dont know why i keep dont bother them. i try to force myself to look at them. But things get get worst, Imgine of selina keep appearing in my eyes. Sometimes see all those family with kids/baby, i always stand there and dream. If that family is i and selina, wouldn’t it better and i keep hoping that day to come forward. Even poor, rich just as long as i with her is already letting my this life much more colourful and wonderful. i really love her alot till really no words can describe. Alot of ppl told me once time passes i will forget. Its a very common thing. But i can ensure all of you that i wont. She is the girl that really hold my heart and let me feel what the power of love and letting me have the trust and faith in long term relationship. Alright i going to get prepare and go for work le. otherwise i end late and i will be thinking alot of stuff again. For now, Danny is going to get some depression, mood swing and etc…
Hope you all can forgive him if he really offence you. Thanks alot.
Never Give Up Easily
12:44 AM
Saturday, September 20, 2008
well… cant sleep again. this is the 4th day i didnt slp le. afterwards i still need to work. i have done selina so much wrong till i have awake from this scolding by steven and some of my good fren. But it’s all too late. I will promise infront of everyone and those who have read my blog. In the past, I am so foolish. i always thought that once a guy love her and loyal to her is good enough but i didnt really look into it. It’s more than all this. I have missed one out and thats is a very important key to hold each other tightly. The word is RESPONSIBLE. Its is a very simple word but dont understimate the power of this word. After this lesson, i have learn alot. Even i can with selina or wont be with her anymore. i will still change for the better for myself. i will vowed infront of everyone. Losing a person you love so deeply is very pain. Is hard for you to imgine the pain and feel the pain if you are not the one. We still can laugh, smile or crap but our heart know us more better. Thats what i can say. Love is blind and make a fool out of ourselves if we didnt handle properly. Make it simple. Care and concern more about your love one. understand her and treat her good. If you cant do it , dont promise. you will end up hurting her more deep then you wont do it. Love a person is a take and give situation. Dont just keep be a hero and take everything. Nowadays girls also want to share those hard times with you. So, just share with them otherwise they will fell hurt that you look down on them or just something like that. You need 2 hand to clap, 1 hand we cant clap. okay guys, i writing here is cos i dont want any guys make the same mistake as me. i have regreted alot and if i have the chance again. OF COS i WILL and DEFINITELY treat her the best way i can and understand her more better.
Thanks everyone and i have learn a very important lesson in my life.
Never Give Up Easily
12:43 AM
Friday, September 19, 2008
Today i’m off. i dont know what i can do at all. i gt a dream of my ex and i feel so depressed again. i just want to have a long term r/s and last as long as it could or even forever. bur things came unexpectedly and causing me to lose her. Maybe she right, we are not suitable for each other. She have endure me for so long and i already try my best not to do whatever things she disliked. i just hope even we cant be couple anymore but we can still be friend ? she know quite alot of things of me and i know quite some things of her too but everything is just too late. At least for now, i have learn my lesson from this relationship. Empty promises, hurt and disappointment is the most major problem and lead to dead end. i have so regret that i have done all this. i will change all this bad habit and change for the best of myself. Hais, this morning i have received NS enlistment letter. Sooner or later, BOTAK ! DAM ! HAIR GONE !! hais, hope i will get stronger by then. =) Anyway, i really want to say for the last time. For my Bros and friends. Thanks for being there with me, chat with me whenever i feel down. All of you never fail to be there when i need you. Thanks alot. i really appreciate it alot ! Thanks guys !
Never Give Up Easily
12:08 AM
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Yesterday, end school at 12pm. Then went to meet dear around 12.30 or 12.45pm. So, we went to causeway cos dear want to apply for interview at there but in the end need to go marina for interview cos there is their headquater. Then we felt abit hungry, we went to jack place to eat. Cos we seldom went there eat, so we try their food over there. The food is dam great. BUT I MAKE A MISTAKE! I DIDNT SEE THE TIME! WE CANT GO TO GOAT FARM COS IT CLOSED AT 4PM. i feel very sad cos i promise my dear to bring her there but didnt make it. hais ~ Then i think of another plan is go walk walk ( window shopping ). So, after eating i bring dear to marina square to walk walk then saw a jacket which my dear like it quite alot so i bought it for her. Hope she really like it :) Then, after buying awhile she want to wear le. How cute she is. Buy new jacket straight want to wear le. haha :) Hmm, Then after that we walk to raffles city ( at city hall ) starbucks to drink green tea Frappuccino which is my dear one of her favourite drink. After awhile, my dear say she want to go library. I was abit stunned. Cos i see books will fall asleep. But afterall, we went there cos i know my dear like books alot so accompany her there. Reached there le, my dear like so happy. Keep taking books like she will read finish. But in the end she really read finish. So surprising ! haha ! As for me, Starting i fall asleep le :x Hope she dont blame me for that :( But after i wake, she was like keep introducing things in the books to me. E.g. Dear see this picture, all japanese are cursed. They are wellknown for that cos of the war they have. And lots more. If want know more ask my dear xD haha ! Then after that, we walk to douby ghout to have our dinner. We shared our dinner at Tomato. Arent we sweet ? haha >.< haha ="(.">
Never Give Up Easily
10:38 AM