Friday, September 4, 2009
Alright.. Long time didnt post or touch my blog.. I have decided to blog is cos now i really feeling down.
Let me introduce my new dog but soon she isnt my dog anymore. I and my gf love this dog and her name call YUKI ! she so cute and we love her alot but cos my grandmother say this sentence " GOT ME NO DOG, GOT DOG NO ME ". HOW CAN SHE SAY THIS ! i'm dam disappointed.. whenever yuki run around, run around and i try not to bother. but whatever she do she keep want me to join her and play with her. so in the end went to play with her.. while playing with her, i feel like losing her soon.. i'm dam sad about this... i dont know will yuki feel this way too even though we only stay with each other for 2 days. i dont know what i can do for her... i will take lots of pic of her for memories.. i think i need to send her back to the seller and just let her be there.. at least i know she will be happy and have a good owner since i cant be the one for her.. And baby, i sorry too cos i know you also love yuki alot too.. but i guess we dont have a choice.. if i got chance, i will.. Hais, i will update her photo here .. thats all bah .. god bless ~!
Never Give Up Easily
8:26 PM
Monday, June 8, 2009
Its been awhile since i last blog... and i promise baby to blog and didnt have time to blog so now taaaaa daaaaa ~~~
Alright.. lets start from 4th of June ~!!
Went out with baby and have fun... i remember that while i driving i crap a jokes with my baby... i ask her what is UFO in chinese yet she say alien ( in chinese which is wrong ) and i was laughing at her while i told her she say wrong... i told her is UFO ( in chinese which is correct )... then she also laugh at herself ... LOL !! then after that we go iluma eat dinner... here are the photos !!!
The Food We Ordered
MY FOOD !!!
MY BELOVED BABY FOOD !!!
OUR CANDID PIC !!! ( TOOK BY ME AND MY BABY RANDOMLY !! )
Next, is My Beautiful Baby Butterfly On the way !! 6th Of June ~!!
My cute and beautiful baby have change into butterfly cos she works as Mascot !! while i work as Party hosts !! haha !! seeing her enjoy herself and change into a cute and attractive butterfly make me love her more ~!! hehe... want to see her picture ? awhile more alright ? hmm.. what else ?? Oh ya ~~ we also get to know who is better and who is an ass for our job >.<>
Last and Not LEAST, Talk about 7 of June ~!!
This time my baby is work as Mascot Assistant ~!! This Job Scope is very easy BUT BUT very tiring and carry stuff for them just like a maid... LOL ! i have done it before so this is just my way of viewing this job scope... haha ~!! But this time round very little of my baby photo le.. sadded :( but all of you will now have the chance to see some of our colleague picture ~!! Below are some of them, see any of them who you know ~!! hehe.. Maybe one of them are your old friends ~!! LOL !!
Wahaha ~!! Look like past few days lots of fun and interesting stuff happening around me ~!! Btw... To All my Fans out there, I will only update whenever there are stuff for my to update as i am lazy for everyday blogging cos i'm not those who are " siao blogger " who camp at home updating their blog... LOL ~!!
Alright, Tags for my baby~!!
Baby, You have done a good job in your work ~!! I AM PROUD TO HAVE A GF LIKE YOU ~!!
I LOVE YOU BABY ~!! Never Give Up !!
Never Give Up Easily
11:29 PM
Monday, May 11, 2009
Back to blogging..
Ytd working at wild wild wet (www) having a party over there. Is not mine is 2 kids birthday fall in a same day. work together with 2 senior and they prepare very fast even though they keep say not enough time and etc.. but in the end we just make it in time. Also learn how to prepare and do the checklist and guess it Was a fun one.. in the party i can play with them and take care of them. haha.. but there is some misunderstanding that i dont want to say.. but that is also my and my gf new obstucles needed to come over and make our feeling stronger. when theres is new obstucles with my gf , after some time our feeling and relaionship become stronger. Maybe our relationship needed new obstucles to become stronger and wiser. Alright, I have promise my gf that i will only love her and only her and i guess i mean it cos ytd i saw her just like that, my heart sank to the btm of the sea... thats really what i feel...
Alright.. Lets talk abit about next week..
I also will be working another birthday party together with 2 senior again at Escape Theme Park again.. Hope to learn more thing over there and wish i could really be master soon about birthday party. Hope to learn more thing over there and enjoy ba..
Never Give Up Easily
1:29 PM
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Hmm alright.. being forced to update by my baby :x
Lets talk about yesterday.. Early in the morning had to wake early to send my baby for work and buy stuff to cook dinner for her. So need to go back and prepare ingredient to cook for her. so around 3pm i started to bring out all the stuff i need and start to cook.. hmm.. cook and cook and cook.. times goes fast.. soon already past 4.45pm or ltr abit bah.. then need to rush down to fetch my baby from work and let her try my cooking.. hehee.. guess what i heard.. SHE SAY NOT BAD !! feel so SONG !! GREAT CHEF IS HERE !! wahaha !! then tml still cook for her.. haven buy anything yet.. hehe >.<>
HERE ARE THE PICTURES !!
My Birthday Cake !!
Celebrating With My Baby Next To Me !!
Friends Who Celebrate My Birthday With Me !!
NoOne Can Snatch Her From Me !!
Bringing My Baby To SuperMarket.. Isnt She Cute ??
Bunch Of Friends Playing Poker Card !!
Never Give Up Easily
10:19 PM
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Back to blogg.. I Must THANKS those who came to my chalet and celebrated with me.. THANKS FOR COMING~!! ALL THE BEST GUYS ~!!
~ I MUST HIGHLIGHT THIS ~
* THANKS BABY FOR THE PRESENT , I SERIOUSLY LOVE IT ALOT *
* THIS IS FIRST HANDMAKE PRESENT FROM MY BABY *
* THANKS BABY FOR MY BIRTHDAY CAKE *
* THANKS FOR ALL THE HARDWORK YOU PUT IN !! I LOVE YOU BABY *
~ SUMMARY OF MY CHALET ~
I have enjoy it alot especially celebrated with my good buddies from ite and poly.. They are Steven , Xiao Xin , Jeff & Sharon << ( ITE ) , Vovi & Joey << ( POLY ) AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST OF CUS MY BABY AKA SELINA... For those who came for my bday.. thanks for coming & thanks for making my day bright and fun !!
3 Days 2 night of chalet .. overall to me is still enjoyable and fun because i always treat it as a gathering where we could share all our stuff and time together.. If theres some leftover stuff, all of us will try our best to finish the food while chatting or other ways if there is... HEHE ~
OH YA~~ DAM IT.. RAITH I SHALL REMEMBER U ~ SMASH CAKE ON ME ! DAM !!
~ Photo Shots ~
* Photos are still being updating , will be update as soon as i gt the picture *
* Sry of the inconvience causes *
Never Give Up Easily
10:49 PM
Thursday, March 19, 2009
This afternoon play audition with selina, was quite good and happy until we play left 4 dead just cos i off the cheats and i ran to safe house. I dont know why she so angry with this. I know is my fault but must she react this way ? I just off the cheats is because of a person who making the map so messy and making lots of funny stuff out of it. I just dont know whats wrong i did. Nvm, its over. Hope things will get better. Maybe she love to play cheats while i dont which make us conflict together. Hais, someday hope things will be better for us.
After today, i will not shed any of my tears for girls anymore. I have learn lots of stuff in this relationship. I must stand firm and strong with my decision. Now my life objective is to strive for my goals and my target and save more money for future.
Wish me all the best ~
Never Give Up Easily
12:51 PM
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Back to update my this dead blog. This post is just for me to note what i gonna do for my upcoming days.
For my room:
- Buy paint ( Planning )
- Buy new bed ( Planning )
- Buy new cupboard ( Planning )
- Tidy my rooms ( In Progress )
- Rearrange the arrangement of my rooms ( Planning )
*Total must not cost more than $1000~
For my Personal Matters:
- Build up my relationship ( Planning & In Progress )
- Able to compromise with my dear ( Planning & In Progress )
- Both of us understand each other ( In Progress )
- Earn and save more money ( In Progress )
- Build up my career ( Waiting for status of my application )
- Able to stick together with my dear for the rest of my life ( In Progress )
There will be more, will be updated when i think of it...
Never Give Up Easily
3:18 AM
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
A terrible things happen in my life. A 2 yrs + relationship that i really put in effort and looking forward to have better future but didnt expect it happened this way. We still love each other deeply but just cos of engagement we need to end.. Is it worth of doing this ?? You once say you wont leave me and you scare of it but why every time you are the one who wanted to leave me? Do you think i got everything planned out? Do you think i want this ending and After going through so much thing until now we are much more stable and really be there for one another. Past few days we just say how lovely we are from our heart without any lies. All this doesnt mean anything to you ? 2 yrs + of relationship that i really look forward to and i just really want to treasure it. Yes, i have disappoint you this but that still doesnt mean that i wont marry you in future or rather leave you. I promise i wont leave you, and i'm surely this time you will know i wont leave you cos you know how much love we have put and how devotion are both of us now. And why we cant face each other parents? we got nothing to scare or cant face cos of engagement. what my mom wanted is i have a stable job to support you. My mom never say she dislike you or rather dont want you to be her daughter-in-law and she just want you have a better life and more secure together with me. And i still want to say thank you for helping in my school work yesterday. i appreciate that alot. All i want to say is, 2yrs + of relationship is it worth ended just like that when both of us still love one another so deeply? If you really dont feel this way, you really broke my heart deeply cos i believed you also feel this way. i might not know what problem we are facing but i hope we can really say out and really be united once again.
I really still ("v") you alot...
I still want more hugs and kisses from you...
Never Give Up Easily
8:41 AM
Friday, December 12, 2008
Soo long didnt blog already..
Hmm.. Today is my last paper.. whoohoo H-O-L-I-D-A-Y... HOLIDAY ~! alright.. After my exam, go home rest then wanted to ask my dear to come my house to pei me cos i long want to see her. LOL.. cos too long nv pei her or rather have time with her. So, I called her quite few times until she saw ( i think ) my sms then she reply me and say she outside and going home soon. So, i replied.. okay.. then i go take a noon nap cos past few days really didnt get a good slp cos exam exam exam... all days long... Then after i wake up i need to go for my driving lessons... while driving, dear call me.. so i picked it up cos i was waiting for my turn to practise my parking... thats why i can ans.. then dear and xiao xin say meet at cine at 10pm.. i was late cos i cant get any cab there... sry to let xiao xin wait for a long time... then when i reach xiao xin told me selina haven reach.. i was thinking that dear told me she at somewhere around town... It should be very fast to reach cine.. so i ask xiao xin to go kbox first cos she waited so long... Then we told the person 3 ppl cos plus my dear... then we went in sing for like around 2 hr plus while i keep calling dear hp for like 10+ call nearly 20+ until she ans and guess what she told me... so late le , you all still at cine ? ( i was like already very pissed off cos i keep calling her and she nv picked up... ) i was like ya.. still singing , where are you now.. she dare to say she at her house void deck.. that sentence really make my temper hit to the maximum.. i nv kanna put aeroplane by my gf before.. and she is the first one.. NOT EVEN A SINGLE CALL FROM HER THAT SHE NOT COMING OR INFORMING US ... I WAS SO ANGRY WITH IT... Friends or bf more important to you ? sometimes i just feel like being her fren instead. BF seem to be a spare tire for her.. from the point of view...normally gf 100% stick with bf or rather when the time is reaching.. either bf or gf will know he or she is meeting her beloved ones and intend to tell her fren she got something on or tell them that he or she is meeting his or her bf or gf.. i dont get it.. i'm so disappointed in this.. i hope she will change and know who is piority. i have told her lots of times.. yet still like this.. dont know did she listen anot.. Now, she promise to do something with it.. i hope she really do... at least i know i wont make a wrong choice... cos for me.. I LIKE AND LOVE A STICKY GF OR WIFE cos they will make time for him / her w/o late. TRUST, CONFIDENT, UNITY AND UNDERSTANDING is the key word for success in r/s. Hope my dear really know what i trying to say ...
Never Give Up Easily
4:28 AM
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Back to blog. have not been blogging for a long time due to my work and studies. Yes, recently have happen alot of thing to me. Firstly, yes i failed my car test again. I so disappointed in myself and so angry. I dont want to say any thing about it. I only told to some of them not all. Secondly is I'm broke ! I dont have any money on me. I such a spendthrift. I thought i dont buy anything i could save lots of money but in the end i'm wrong. All the money i spend on is FOOD FOOD FOOD! Oh my. i didnt realise. Nowadays things is so ex. 1 meal for a person could cost $5+ if want better food $10+ ! Just 1 meal. How bout two ? a couple going out ? cant imagine right ? Hais, life is full of obstacle and so much stress. Nothing without stress. Study got exam stress. Working got working stress. Personal stuff also got stress. Worst still family also stress. What the world is this ? Why cant a person be happy and carefree ? Is life just like that ?
Anyway, This month guess what. I have save few hundred dollars compare to last month spending usage. Last month so far i calculate i have spend few thousand total but this month so surprising i only spend $550 till now. Really save alot. I must thanks selina for this. Sometimes i want to buy things for her, she stop me and tell me dont anyhow spend money. Its annoying but she think for me. We also even share a meal instead of ordering 2 sets. first she told me is sweet and secondly told me can save money. Just fill our stomach with food but not too full is enough. i was like thanks her in my heart.
Thanks dear for everything. Hope we can build a castle of our own.
Never Give Up Easily
10:25 AM
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Hmm, back to blogging time. Last friday, i and my dear went to goat farm as i promise her earlier on. Singapore is so small till i dont know where to go. So, i just decided to bring my dear to visit goat as i think is interesting and fun. So, we went there feed goat and see how goat really look like. They really look very cute and funny. Feeding goat is the best part. haha. Then after all the fun, we bought 9 bottle of goat milk. 4 chocolate and 4 white and 1 on the spot i and my dear share. The taste of it, is quite nice but after drinking will have abit of goat taste. Hmm~ then after all this fun and we left the place. Then we head to my dear house, cos dear want to bath and after that head to my house cos i also want to bath due to very hot weather. Then after that, we take cab to my dear cousin house ( li huan ) to visit her baby. As for me, carry on with the cab to ubi driving center to learn driving. At driving center, i was like also bang to another car cos the driver i think is new to ciruit. Sudden engine jam due to his envous i guess. But overall still nothing happen. haha ~ phew~ Then after driving, take cab to my dear cousin house to pick her up for dinner. Then after eat, my dear decided want to take a walk cos she eat till very full. So, to me is alright but my leg very tired. Very far leh. why hougang 2 street need to walk so far man. zzz ! Then, after that we also went to pongol park to relax. Then after that, things become bad. i dont want to say anymore cos the matter keep repeating.
To me, I really think i have grown up. After last break i have really understand both parties need to trust each other alot. Even a IF or suspect wont break them up. i will think alot such as can i give her all the happiness ? what can i give her ? can i handle the responsiblity ? finianial problem ? when problem come, we must face it and settle together. Thats how thing settled. If keep in heart for such a long time, once quarrel or argue. Everything will be very diffcult to handle. Most important is after all this, think of the other parties feeling first. sometimes, i even save money from my lunch and dinner. Such as when i'm alone i eat $2 noodles or the most is $6 in order to save money. when i with her i spent alot cos i really want to treasure her and give her all the best i can. This doesnt mean that, i am keep wasting money or rather buy her. That doesnt even exist on my mind. a dollar for a smile of hers is very worth for me. i hope we really understand me. i'm a person that want my dear always be blessed and happy not sad. I know my limit and i know what i can do and what i cannot. The chalet i book for her bday i hope she really enjoy it cos that sum of money is i really foke up with alot of difficulties. maybe she will blame me for wasting money but i once to her i will book for her mean i will. and furthermore her 18th birthday. I can see she very excited and nevous about it. Thats why chalet for me i think is worth the money. i really hope she will enjoy and appreciate it. what i want to say, i have told her already. i hope she can trust me without suspecting me or rather say i make the wrong choice. To her, maybe yes. but to me, i feel so hurt and disappointed and in a lost cos i have try my best to do it. like i promise i bring her to goat farm. i try to cover back during my mc day. Just hope she can accept the new of me.
i going to work le. start at 11am. I'm late again. hais~ too tired. yesterday didnt really slp too cos i cant slp in peace. i need to go off le.
Sayonara~
Never Give Up Easily
10:38 AM
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Today, was a very tired day. Maybe for the past few day didnt slp well thats why like this. Hmm. tml i bringing my dear to goat farm near Lim Chu Kang there. I also never went there before. Hmm, heard that we can play with those goat around there. haha ! i think it sound cool. Hmm, i guess thats all. Tml i shall update again.
Last but no least, I just fell like writing this out. Selina to me is a very special girl. I dont know what i can describe about this feeling. Without her, today maybe is still the same old danny. She have teach me alot of thing in different ways. Her cuteness really melt the stubborness of mine. We have break a lots of time till all our friend think that we are not suitable for each other. Even our own parent also disagree both of us together. But one thing, both of us know we belong to each other cos we have sacrifice alot for each other which noone knows except both of us. We love, care and concern each others also in alot of different ways. We can be called as Strange couples who really do things in different ways. Most important thing is that, lots of people trying to break us up. Yes we did break, but not for long. After sometimes, we will be back to couple again or rather should i say our heart have long ago stick to one another from the start. Maybe we are really meant for one another but we have to go through alot of rain and wind to make us stronger and much more unity. Alright, i'm tired. Going to sleep le. Goodnight ~
Never Give Up Easily
11:25 PM
Yesterday, as usual for me. went to work and need to stock check again. Hais ~ tiring day. Worst thing is that, no one at Carrefour around 9pm plus. OMG ! i just stand there keep dreaming and waiting for time to faster pass so i can go home. haha ! LOL ! thats me. lazy. hmm. then around 10pm plus, selina sms me say feel like meeting me. So, i say okay cos i still cant let go bah. Then when reach there, i run towards the clock near fulleton hotel. In the end, i ran pass her yet i didnt realise. Lucky she saw me, call me and i stop half way and run back. Then see her, knowing that she not feeling good. Abit angry or rather sad. So, i cheer her up. Talk about lots of things, trying to make her happy again. Then see her feel better, of cos to me i also feel good lah. haha :) Then we sat at the bridge , and selina say she want a hug. Of cos i hug her! as in i promise her i will love her 1314, be there for her. Of cos i will do it cos i mean it too. Means we patched back again. wee. have been waited for so long too. haha ! Then is around 3am plus when we are back together again. haha ! then after that dear say say she hungry, feel like eating kaya bread. Then i went to think where have kaya bread. So, in the end i think of a place that have so i bring her there to eat then after that she eat abit say full le. hmm . her wei kou also not so big now adays. But she say she feel like eating something that have soup base. Then she thought of a 24hrs near my house area which sell porridge. Then we eat there, surprising the food is quite nice at there. haha. Then after that send her home le cos too late tml still need go sch ma.
Today after school, went to meet my dear to watch show called house bunny. Even how tired am i. i dont know why i still got energy to watch movie with her reguardless how tired am i. Then after that bring her eat sake sushi for our dinner then send her home.
Anyway, Both of us really have learn alot in this break. I begin to think alot and know how to understand other people feeling and care for them. Never take things for granted too. I really will treasure her and care for her the best i can. I will dote her till i die. To me, i really know she is the one for me and my heart only can hold her. But all i can say now is, I will treasure her and understand her more and make time for her cos she is my gf and must make piority for her.
I love you Dear. Thanks for giving me this chance to let me understand you, treasure you and love you more. !
aishiteru yo See Selina ~
Never Give Up Easily
1:23 AM
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Today i have been a very busy day. Checking stock, re-arrange stock, serve customer and etc.. Rush here and there. Hais~ Then only taken half an hour break due to stock keep coming in. No time to slack somemore but time pass dam fast. when i have done everything, is around 6 to 7 plus liao. cool right ? haha. whole day keep doing stock. LOL ! After work still need to take cab rush to grandmother house cos her birthday. By the time i reach her house is already 9 plus. Then, went to eat my dinner and play poker awhile. Won $2 bucks nia. LOL ! nvm lah. just play for fun. haha ! After that things came worst to me. Hais~ since worst thing, i shld not say out. Let it be past. Theres two song i really love alot.
Never Give Up Easily
3:35 PM
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Today is my last day off before school reopen. Went to do alot of thing. Early in the morning need to wake up early, rush to hand in my time sheet ( punch card ) then follow by delieve the goods to my working fren ( who ask me to buy juicer for him ) and go to wisma to get my hp repair. Such a tiring day. Rush here and there. Today, actually want to ask selina out to catch movies but she say her whole body ach so didnt want to disturb her resting. So, in the end didnt manage to go. So when reach home, went to bath my dog plus learn how to fry fish from my maid in order for me not getting bored at home. LOL! Frying fish is dam hard. Hurt my hand by some freaking oil. Hais~ Nvm, lets recalled back the past few days that i went through.
1st of october, Selina sms me. i was shocked that she wanted to ask me out. We went to ice-skate at kallang where the place we learn how to skate. Even a short time, really let me realise how much i love her. After that, fetch her to downtown east to her fren chalet. As for me, eat my dinner at Mac then head straight home.
Alright, I’m getting tired. Tml is a long day for me. Need to work and stock checking due to stock arrival. Hais~ Sian. Now, I need to learn how to save and spent money since everything have settled. Owned have pay back, credit card have settled. Phew~ ! Guess I have learn my lesson. Now must watch outgoing money le. =(
Never Give Up Easily
11:02 AM
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Today i dont know what happen to me. Still as the same. Miss and think of her alot still. Once i ask myself whether is she the one worth for me waiting? is she the one only suit me? all the while, i always have the answer is WORTH IT. thats why till now i cant let her go. I even want to call or sms her but think of it. she will feel irritating and frastrating so in the end i didnt do any of that. Recently, me myself also dont know why. In the past, i never used to sing to cover my sadness or whatever mood. But till now, I sing to calm myself down. Finding new songs from FM radio, watch MTV ( Starhub cable tv ) and etc.. to get to know more song and try to sing. And i found out 1 song is very nice. The name of that song is Because of you. I love the lyrics alot just like 重来 and 很想說. Really like alot. Today is my off day, Finally can rest for one day. After working so long, learn alot kind of people. Betrayer, Backstabber, etc.. They act infront so good to you yet behind say bad stuffs. Hate them alot. I will learn how to observe people cos nowadays people are so cunning. They will do anything just to get their target. Maybe this is life, confusing and complicated. oh well, Today going sch to hand in my time sheet, after that going out with friends to sing at kbox. Singing really help a person to relax and calm down. alright guys. Time for me to go!
Sayonara~
Never Give Up Easily
1:33 AM
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Today i cant slp again. hais. i still think of her and love her still. The feeling in me is just like cant be removed off. All the times we spent, no matter bad or good is keep on flowing through my head and heart again. keep wondering how she’s doing now. Hoping she is happy. Times have really past very fast. oh well, lets not talk about it anymore. peace ^^
Woohoo, today is a very busy day for me. later on around 10am i start working. work till around 7pm then faster go meet joey and my poly fren to celebrate joey birthday at fish & Co. haha ! free de leh ! song can save money liao. i have some kind went through a very broke times. Need to be very budget about what to eat and what to spent. Really realise money still controlling our human life. Now adays everything is money here and money there. I just need to balance it out. Must be cautions with my spending =x Recently i have been budget about my lunch or dinner. Guess what. At the past, My spending at food is all around 10+ or up to 30+ but now who can imgine i spent 4.50 or up to 6.50 for my lunch or dinner. Is that amazing ? In a short period i can do this. To me, after some experience that i have really make me grow up and be more mature about thinking. But in future, my money will all be spent again cos i always put my girlfriend more piority then me cos she is much more important then me. ok lah. i go jog le. take care everyone.
Sayonara~
Never Give Up Easily
10:57 PM
Friday, September 26, 2008
Today as per normal went to work. Today really no customer. Dam bored. Keep standing there waiting to serve plus listening to song from my hp. LOL. So today i also just realise that i have a poly fren work as the same place as me. So i keep go down find him chat. haha ! then go back work lo. Hmm. after work take bus home. Save money. LOL ! then on the way home. slp on the bus. reach home liao. change to my sport attire then job around my neighbourhood for around 1hr plus then shun bian buy some herbal tea for my family. Now feel so tired. Going to slp le. take care everyone. Yawn~~ NIGHT !
Never Give Up Easily
2:53 PM
Thursday, September 25, 2008
So far till now, i’m feeling much better now le. Maybe this really is fated to be my lifetime experience. I have learn alot of things from this relationship. Theres alot things for me to say out. At least now i know, We human is not so perfectly. I will never trust break and patch again. ” A good horse will never turn back and eat old grass. ” To me, this break have really hurt deeply in my heart and i dont know when will i ever trust girls anymore. Does girls really like bad guys ? The last time i met her, her eye still told me she still love me, yet fear that i will hurt and disappoint her again and again so she decided to let go. i didnt want to say cos i know she really have decided and i think i should respect her decision. Loving a person is to give her happiness. Since i cant give her happiness, i cant hold her back so wish her next bf will treat her better then me. Anyway, its have been ended between us. At least for the good, we have become friends instead of foes. Friends out there, Thanks for being so understanding to me. Listening to me moaning on phone, pei-ing me spent my times. So, NOW ! i going to carry on my life and keep working. Earn and save money is now my 1st piority. Secondly, i need to widen my circle of friends so i will be much more brighten. Last and nt least, i have write this 2 song for her but she didnt want to look at it. Nvm. I just feel i shld post it here too cos i love the meaning alot and can really say out my feeling too.
李圣杰- 重来
多少爱能重来?
多少人愿意等待?
失去之后才明白
走进回忆的安排
一幕一幕的对白
上演我们的未来
期待原来是一种伤害
深爱的人一离开
是我不敢忽略你给我的爱
现在我只想回到最初的时候
不愿让你再泪流
寂寞之后只有你会陪着我
现在我只想回到最初的时候
我知道你还爱着我
亲爱的你请
你握紧我的手
请你看看我
请看需要你的我
一切重头
只要你回头
李圣杰- 很想說
(You Are So Beautiful To Me)
在我眼里你永遠最美 連你一個微笑也都會讓我醉
你所謂的幸福我想給 以為手不放開就是痴心絕對
太愚昧 難道 笑容沒了 距离有了 快樂也走了
還是 真心死了 彼此不信任了 終于懂了 真的
很想說有你是幸福的 很想說我的心是你的
很想說你真的誤解了 很想說你真的忘記了 My Love
笑容沒了 距离有了 快樂也走了
還是 真心死了 彼此不信任了 終于懂了 真的
很想說有你是幸福的 很想說我的心是你的
很想說你真的誤解了 很想說你真的忘記了
很想說會好好疼你的 很想說愛你是自由的
很想說你是否听見了 很想說你真的忘記了
愛了 就有堅持理由 別說 我會留在路口
不會走 愛你會直到最后
很想說有你是幸福的 很想說我的心是你的
很想說你真的誤解了 很想說你真的忘記了
很想說會好好疼你的 很想說愛你是自由的
Never Give Up Easily
11:50 PM
Monday, September 22, 2008
Today i finally slp for 2 hours. Each day passes, i misses her more and more. My heart keep getting more pain. She is the person really can hold my heart once again when i never trust in love or long time relationship. This few day i keep thinking how am i going to change for the good and best. After leaving her, i just feel that i cant live without her, all those memories all keep flowing back to my mind. Even vivocity where i currently working now got so much nice and pretty girl. I dont know why i keep dont bother them. i try to force myself to look at them. But things get get worst, Imgine of selina keep appearing in my eyes. Sometimes see all those family with kids/baby, i always stand there and dream. If that family is i and selina, wouldn’t it better and i keep hoping that day to come forward. Even poor, rich just as long as i with her is already letting my this life much more colourful and wonderful. i really love her alot till really no words can describe. Alot of ppl told me once time passes i will forget. Its a very common thing. But i can ensure all of you that i wont. She is the girl that really hold my heart and let me feel what the power of love and letting me have the trust and faith in long term relationship. Alright i going to get prepare and go for work le. otherwise i end late and i will be thinking alot of stuff again. For now, Danny is going to get some depression, mood swing and etc…
Hope you all can forgive him if he really offence you. Thanks alot.
Never Give Up Easily
12:44 AM
Saturday, September 20, 2008
well… cant sleep again. this is the 4th day i didnt slp le. afterwards i still need to work. i have done selina so much wrong till i have awake from this scolding by steven and some of my good fren. But it’s all too late. I will promise infront of everyone and those who have read my blog. In the past, I am so foolish. i always thought that once a guy love her and loyal to her is good enough but i didnt really look into it. It’s more than all this. I have missed one out and thats is a very important key to hold each other tightly. The word is RESPONSIBLE. Its is a very simple word but dont understimate the power of this word. After this lesson, i have learn alot. Even i can with selina or wont be with her anymore. i will still change for the better for myself. i will vowed infront of everyone. Losing a person you love so deeply is very pain. Is hard for you to imgine the pain and feel the pain if you are not the one. We still can laugh, smile or crap but our heart know us more better. Thats what i can say. Love is blind and make a fool out of ourselves if we didnt handle properly. Make it simple. Care and concern more about your love one. understand her and treat her good. If you cant do it , dont promise. you will end up hurting her more deep then you wont do it. Love a person is a take and give situation. Dont just keep be a hero and take everything. Nowadays girls also want to share those hard times with you. So, just share with them otherwise they will fell hurt that you look down on them or just something like that. You need 2 hand to clap, 1 hand we cant clap. okay guys, i writing here is cos i dont want any guys make the same mistake as me. i have regreted alot and if i have the chance again. OF COS i WILL and DEFINITELY treat her the best way i can and understand her more better.
Thanks everyone and i have learn a very important lesson in my life.
Never Give Up Easily
12:43 AM
Friday, September 19, 2008
Today i’m off. i dont know what i can do at all. i gt a dream of my ex and i feel so depressed again. i just want to have a long term r/s and last as long as it could or even forever. bur things came unexpectedly and causing me to lose her. Maybe she right, we are not suitable for each other. She have endure me for so long and i already try my best not to do whatever things she disliked. i just hope even we cant be couple anymore but we can still be friend ? she know quite alot of things of me and i know quite some things of her too but everything is just too late. At least for now, i have learn my lesson from this relationship. Empty promises, hurt and disappointment is the most major problem and lead to dead end. i have so regret that i have done all this. i will change all this bad habit and change for the best of myself. Hais, this morning i have received NS enlistment letter. Sooner or later, BOTAK ! DAM ! HAIR GONE !! hais, hope i will get stronger by then. =) Anyway, i really want to say for the last time. For my Bros and friends. Thanks for being there with me, chat with me whenever i feel down. All of you never fail to be there when i need you. Thanks alot. i really appreciate it alot ! Thanks guys !
Never Give Up Easily
12:08 AM
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Yesterday, end school at 12pm. Then went to meet dear around 12.30 or 12.45pm. So, we went to causeway cos dear want to apply for interview at there but in the end need to go marina for interview cos there is their headquater. Then we felt abit hungry, we went to jack place to eat. Cos we seldom went there eat, so we try their food over there. The food is dam great. BUT I MAKE A MISTAKE! I DIDNT SEE THE TIME! WE CANT GO TO GOAT FARM COS IT CLOSED AT 4PM. i feel very sad cos i promise my dear to bring her there but didnt make it. hais ~ Then i think of another plan is go walk walk ( window shopping ). So, after eating i bring dear to marina square to walk walk then saw a jacket which my dear like it quite alot so i bought it for her. Hope she really like it :) Then, after buying awhile she want to wear le. How cute she is. Buy new jacket straight want to wear le. haha :) Hmm, Then after that we walk to raffles city ( at city hall ) starbucks to drink green tea Frappuccino which is my dear one of her favourite drink. After awhile, my dear say she want to go library. I was abit stunned. Cos i see books will fall asleep. But afterall, we went there cos i know my dear like books alot so accompany her there. Reached there le, my dear like so happy. Keep taking books like she will read finish. But in the end she really read finish. So surprising ! haha ! As for me, Starting i fall asleep le :x Hope she dont blame me for that :( But after i wake, she was like keep introducing things in the books to me. E.g. Dear see this picture, all japanese are cursed. They are wellknown for that cos of the war they have. And lots more. If want know more ask my dear xD haha ! Then after that, we walk to douby ghout to have our dinner. We shared our dinner at Tomato. Arent we sweet ? haha >.< haha ="(.">
Never Give Up Easily
10:38 AM